Thursday, October 18, 2012

Broken? Ankle. :(

I was walking down off the hill for Eerie Acres Haunted Forest.
It's a Halloween thing my Aunt does every year. Her son had been throwing rocks down the steps, and since it was dark, you couldn't see anything. Well... let's just say my foot/ankle found it. Everyone heard it crack. ouch. Unfortunately, since I'm in Athens Co. instead of Fairfield Co. I can't go have it checked out. No insurance, and it'll cost me down here. It won't in Fairfield due to many reasons.

I can't stand it when people ask, 'can you move it?' 'can you walk?'. OF COURSE I CAN MOVE IT. OF COURSE I CAN WALK ON IT! I'm in shock! The pain hasn't fully hit me yet. That first initial crack hurts like a mother though. OUCH!

It's also a myth that you can't walk on a broken ankle, because YOU CAN. I've broken my ankle before and walked on it for a week before even having it x-rayed. I was also only 4 at the time. Yay for high pain tolerances/thresholds? lol

The worst part? I still have work to do until I get to go home. Not everything is finished for the haunted forest. :/ I'm just going to have to push through the pain and keep going to get everything done.

On the bright side? This limp's going to give me an amazing zombie walk. lmao

You should see how swollen this thing is. This is AFTER it had been iced on and off all night. ick. No bruising though... I don't bruise easily. Didn't bruise the last time I broke it either. :P

I think the worst part out of all this is probably the fact that it's going to keep me from working out. :( I can't believe this happened... again! About 5 months ago, I think I broke my other foot. Couldn't walk on it for a month, and it still hurts if I step on it wrong. Stupid me never went to have it checked out though because I couldn't afford an x-ray. :/ I just had to stay off of it for a while, and test it every day at least once to see how much weight it could handle... let's just say, not much.

Saturday, October 6, 2012

How do I look?

My hair is a mess, and I'm not wearing any makeup... but that's not what I'm asking. lol

After losing 65lbs... I'm able to fit into a lot of outfits and sizes I wasn't able to before. I'm proud of myself, and I hope I can continue to my 115lb goal. I'm currently at 170lbs from 235lbs. :) I can't believe I've made it this far! :D

Unfortunately, since I traded my camera for a MacBook, I don't have my camera to take my photos anymore, so I'm stuck with the webcam.

As we all know, I have disproportionally short legs. Very short. I only have a 40.2% ratio... Average is 47-48%. Unlike most people with short legs, I know how to dress to make them look more proportional. As you can also see, if you dress properly, even bigger girls can wear skinny jeans. They're not only for 'skinny' people.

The only thing worse than having short legs, is having such a long torso. I have the hardest time finding shirts that'll fit me properly. They're all too short. I have to wear tanks under them to make them wearable. Under this one, I have a white tank tucked into my jeans. Once again, skinny jeans look perfectly fine on a 'fat' girl. I'm sick and tired of hearing that larger women/girls can't wear them. It's completely untrue.
In addition to shirts not fitting well, dresses don't fit very well. They're too short, and I won't ever be able to wear one without leggings. :/
I bought this dress MONTHS ago as a 'goal' dress, and I'm FINALLY into it! :)

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Confused. Updates. Weight loss and gain. Handmade Crafts. Ect...

I'm honestly not exactly sure why I haven't been updating this.
It's not like working out is taker over my life...  Okay, well maybe it is.

I was down 65lbs. I wish I was down more, but eh... I'll take it.

Unfortunately, I went down to my grandpa's...
Every time I go down there, I always manage to gain about 10lbs.
I have no idea how or why... I just do.
I don't even have to eat anything, and I can work out like CRAZY, and I'll still gain 10lbs.
Maybe it's water weight... or maybe my body just hates me... I really don't know.
All I know is, all the work I've put into losing the extra 10lbs, and all the months it took, it took less than a week to gain it all back. :(

It's the things like that that are completely and utterly depressing, and make you just want to give up.

I don't want to give up though! I want to keep going!

Another thing that may have contributed to it, is the fact that I haven't been feeling well... therefore, I haven't been able to work out as much. My 5-7 miles a night has dropped down to maybe a mile. Pathetic... I know. But what can you do?

I have to have blood work today, so hopefully that'll tell me what's been going on and fix it, so I can get myself back on track.


The worst part about this whole weight loss experience though, would definitely have to be the fact that NONE of my clothes fit me. I'm down to 2 or 3 pairs of jeans, and maybe 1 dress shirt, along with all my wife-beaters that I work out in and 2 pairs of leggings that I also work out in. :(
How can I stay stylish  and cute if I can't even wear my clothes or afford to buy new ones? It's horrible! Horrible I tell ya! HORRIBLE!!!!

My favorite black leather jacket is also starting to see it's end of days.  The entire side of it has ripped out, and is un sewable... it's also too big, but since it's my favorite, I can't get rid of it. Not yet. I've been using duct tape to hold it together. If duct tape doesn't fix it... nothing will. lmao


On another note... I got a hair cut! :)
I also make hats, scarves, potholders, ect...
If you're interested in owning one of your own handmade items... go to my 'about' page, scroll to the bottom, and click on my ETSY link. It'll take you to my shop! :)

Yes... Even though this is a makeup and fashion blog... I decided to show a photo of myself without any makeup on. I am perfectly fine with the way I look without makeup, and actually prefer it now-a-days. I also realize I need to touch up my roots. WHOOPS! Didn't know they looked that bad until I saw the photo. Inverted skunk much?


And once again, I know I've said it a million times, but I'm hoping to come back to my blog. I recently traded my Nikon D200 (that I took all my blog photos with) and traded it for a late 2010 Unibody MacBook. LOVE IT! Best trade in the world. I'm also saving up some money (1,000$ goal. Might have to up it a bit) to get me some new clothes for when my weight loss is complete. I'm also trying to talk my mom into giving me my camera (SONY) back so I can continue with my blog. When she bought me the Nikon (along with a Nikon F5) for Christmas, she demanded me to give her my Sony. I much prefer the coloring on the Sony to the Nikon... and the Sony also has video where the Nikon didn't. It's also a higher MP. If I can talk her into giving it back to me... my life will be complete. Or at least, complete for now. ha >:)